Revelation

So exams are totally unnerving me and my normally unflappable self is getting flapped all over the place in a flappy symphony of flaptacular flapdom. Yesterday someone from school called me to ask if someone from the news can interview me for blah blah blah and something about it struck me as so ridiculous and absurd. It was like that proverbial stray thread and the phonecall tugged on it and my entire self was unraveled before my very eyes! And there I stood naked to the fact that's been drilling on my head all these years to no avail because of my thick thick skull. That I am nothing and there is nothing wonderful or spectacular about my life and its just one giant rancid pile of failure and I've spent all this time painting such a wonderful picture of my world and all the shiny ornaments twirling within this fantasyscape with pictures and words and all sorts of nonsense such that I'd managed to convince even myself of the gloriousness that is the universe of me. I AM THE BIGGEST PHONEY IN ALL THE LAND! Why am I so attention seeking!!! Why am I so incomplete inside!!! WHO AM I REALLY??? This is madness.

Haha and in other news, I need to pee. Yes OMG SIANZ INDEED. TTYL!