Hey guys, wordpress is working fine again so I'm back there at:

www.omgsianz.org

This url will be expiring soon.

XOXO!

Push

Alright I finally gave in to Adele last night! And yes she's pretty great. I was feeling so messed up last night, and I like to listen to really depressing songs (cue, Adele!) whenever I'm feeling down because it pushes out all the emo inside me and then after a few minutes, I'd find myself completely over whatever issue was bothering me. (My song choice: Someone Like You)

The thing about being psychotically positive and optimistic like I usually am (besides having delusions of grandeur and the eternal illusion of utter contentment) is that when something happens that shakes my core, I fall off the edge so easily and everything comes crashing down around me and while I'm struggling to find one thing, anything, to hold on to, I get this suffocating rush when I realize there's really nothing, nobody, NOTHING in my life I can grab on to. There's absolutely nobody I can call up and talk to at any instant when I'm feeling messed up. (And I do get seriously messed up at times, I do become completely heartbroken over the most random things, which is part of what's annoying about me, that the things that affect me tend to be so random and unpredictable) And I know it's all part of the grand design of my life that I have consciously built around me but this (albeit fleeting) feeling of suffocation and isolation just makes it all too real. That I am one person. Alone, in my room, with my so many people on my facebook chat and msn and my phone and yet.

It rings many alarms in my head and I realize this is why people have relationships and why people grab on to love or companionship, but I dunno. Seriously, is THAT what it takes? Disgusting! Have we evolved so little as a species that we're still faced with this sickening ultimatum? Urgh I REALLY need to get a fish tank again.

I HATE MY LIFE!

Is You OKAY?

I have had just about enough of this wordpress nonsense. Posted a tiny little message there this morning when it was working fine for a while and then the whole thing just imploded again and now it's inaccessible again so goodbye wordpress! So annoying! I have such little patience when it comes to anything at all, and then just a teensy fraction of that when it comes to techie stuff. I am so DONE with wordpress.

Well today was nice! Mom made prawn sambal. And then tried to hide them from me because I have this little itch on my back and she thinks it's an allergic reaction to prawns, which doesn't make sense because I hadn't eaten the prawns YET when I got the itch. So unless they infected me telepathically while they were in the freezer, it couldn't have been them.

Had so many things going on this past week, I'll talk about it tomorrow I guess.

I've been trolling youtube (I guess that's what everyone does when they're on the mugsterzone binge and need some time off from the books) and I've found so many interesting people who have been rocking my mindsocks.

There's the infinitely fabulous GloZell:



And there's sweet thoughtful Jesse who took some pimple pills that gave him depression, mood swings and suicidal thoughts, but the results ARE JUST AMAZING so he recommends it to anyone LOL?:



AND OF COURSE OF COURSE OF COURSE, my absolute fave, ANNOYING ORANGE!



IKR! So, bitchy sarcastic comments aside, I really think they're all pretty awesome people and really interesting to watch anyhow!

What is up?

I don't know WHAT THE hell is going on at wordpress but nothing's working for me, and everyone's all up in my phone about not getting on that page like, so you're back and then you're gone and then you're back again and then you just shut me out again IS THIS A GAME TO YOU are you having fun? No, haha really, wordpress just sucks and that's that. It's all messed up and yet there's no official statement on the homepage (that is, at the few instances when you can even access it at all), nothing! And I'm left wondering if it's something wrong with my laptop or my browser for hours and days on end. And I have been DYING to blog since last week urgh.

Well I know a couple of you are still coming here since I always see the referrals from this page in my stats (so I hope you get this message, I have not abandoned you yet again :p) and anyway, this is like my home base since the url is real easy to remember and also BLOGGER DOES NOT SUCK apparently, unlike urgh wordpress. I'd like to press your word on your pressing word thing, that's what I'd like to do right now, wordpress. See I'm not even making much sense right now. FRUSTRATION IS MY NAME!

So anyway, I'll be camping out here for now. Laters!

I AM BACK!!! www.omgsianz.org

This domain will be expiring soon so please bookmark my new page!

La Peppito

Wowee it's been quite some time hasn't it, folks! I've just totally not been feeling it this whole week and it's been a crazy week! I guess there are times when I get randomly sick of blogging and the whole idea suddenly disgusts and revolts me and I ask myself why I even do it in the first place and this was the longest stretch so far, so perhaps this whole blogging thing has finally run it's course! Haha maybe I'll get back into the groove sometime soon, maybe tomorrow, maybe tonight, maybe in the next millennium! See how lah, it's Sunday and I gotta do my crazy amount of overdue work!