Unfabulous

I'm not sure what's going on with me these past few days but I've been feeling way below the normal levels of sianz. I get shots of "its okay buck up and be happy because you're fabulous and life is AWESOME" running through me once every few hours and then I'm jazzed up for like a few seconds but then it runs low again and I'm back to being well.. a tad depressed and for no good reason at all. WHATS WRONG with me! Sometimes I just wish I could crumple up my life and restart all over again, sometimes I feel like its irreversibly screwed up and I've blown too many chances. Sometimes I wish I could quit everything and everyone and just live with the stars and the flying ponies in the sky.